If you have reached this page by accident, because although your Google search promised you something great, your search criteria was not actually, great; Welcome Anyway. This is a blog, written by a mom of four kids and a loving husband, who happened one day two years ago to investigate Catholicism. Don't leave yet, let me explain.
I was happy and content in my self professed nerdy state of mom hood. Owning an oversized van, hoping against all hope that my new jeans and highlights would counteract the vehicle, while listening to kids praise music on the drive to preschool drop off. I was a proud Non Denominational Evangelical (the latter of which I always hope to remain).. not once glancing in the direction of taller steeples or sainted statues.
Change occurred when out of a random statement by someone close, an interior spark ignited. My husband, always being the one with the more intellectual of the thoughts among us, had had a small spark lit many years before in college. Yet life became busy, a few kids were born, and a life of non denominational churches seemed to us the best fit for raising our young family. His thoughts were shelved and life resumed. Until the comment that fueled my first questions, which led to a book, which led to many books, which led to a belief that maybe the thoughts that I had always known had a origin in which I did not know, one in which I desperately wanted to grasp and understand, and ultimately give my heart.
Somewhere in the long process, Catholicism morphed from a possibility, to a desire, to obedience. I believe that Jesus Christ opened the doors for me to understand and love his Holy Catholic Church, scars, bad examples, Saints, and all. He has gently guided me from a personal relationship with himself to a personal relationship now viewed among his body. I have found a home in her liturgy, his divine presence in the Eucharist, and a family of believers that from the Church's conception on the cross, have strived to become his disciples throughout the ends of the world.
Conversion is a difficult step, and that is why I have chosen to record my thoughts. It can be painful at times, but blessed with heavenly gifts as well. It is a leap of faith to follow him wherever he may lead, but the One who encourages me to carry my cross has also claimed that his yoke is easy and his burden is light. I have found that although stepping into unknown waters risks drowning, ultimately saving myself means loosing my life first to Christ.
So these are my thoughts, and I pray that they would be found comforting. I pray that somehow in reading the words of a still very nerdy, still van driving, jean wearing mom, someone would be encouraged. I pray that although sometimes I can geek out on a particular saint or theological doctrine, above all a deeply learned love for the Lord would be heard among the many words. And I pray that if one while finding yourself in a blog in which you did not seek, for Google terms in which you now regret, interest may be peaked enough to stay a bit longer while you come, taste, and see that the Lord is good within the doors of his One, Holy, Catholic, and Apostolic Church.
Welcome Friend...
Kim
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